When I was reading through my old entries, I noticed a huge part of them tended to be more emotional than critical. So I guess I’m really a FEELER instead of a thinker. I tried reasoning between the 2 categories – I am both, just tend to ‘think’ according to my feelings or personal convictions. This is my major problem – the inability to draw a clear line between feelings and facts. It’s not that I always have a moral dilemma, but I tend to be sympathetic and most of the time, able to empathize with others. I hate awkward silences, but I will try my best to make my companions feel at ease by finding a common topic. But it’s not like I have so much knowledge at my fingertips that I can just rattle off with confidence. I guess I ‘found’ me today? Though Dennis’ lesson wasn’t an expert-based one, I sorta understood where he was coming from. So I guess it’s more of identifying a ‘clearer’ me.
On a side note, I wish I could do poetry better. Secretly, I’ve always admired peers who can do and love poetry. I so much wanted to do these too, but I’m too tied to my history of writing poetry back in JC. I no longer have any confidence to write a decent poem. Recently, I did a cinquain for class activity. I pitied the person who had to do a peer critique/practical criticism of my 5-line cinquain. It looked so simple, but I felt so much while writing just those 5 lines. While my poem was crappy, I received a good poem from another classmate on the theme Violence. I really like the way she uses symbols to talk about violence. I NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME WITH POETRY!
Well, I need a therapeutic trip to the bookstore after all the immediate deadlines come to an end.
